The world don't get it.

ITS THE WEEKENDS!!!! again...sigh. Looks like its gonna be another boring one. Well at least there is a birthday event instead of staying home. Hmm..so I should be rejoicing? zzzz...
So 3 more weeks of school before its xmas holidays, should I be looking forward to it? I'm still thinking about the gifts, it would probably be a simple one this year. So school has been.....boring as usual but I'm glad that the modules for the final semester is so much easier! Less maths, more brains, more science, more Wikipedia-ing! Everything can be found just by wiki-ing, that's how I survive my 3 years of tertiary level. LOL!
Cut my hair again..not as short as the last time, just a simple trim so that I can style it instead of having to fret over what I should do with it every morning.
Somehow, I've developed some skin allergy or rashes on my neck. Its not a lot but just two patches which seems to have gotten better. With such crazy weather to endure every day, I'm not surprise to have fallen sick. Oh well..just a slight cough..throat irritation. Can't kill me. It takes something else to kill me.
Hmm, mundane...

So the world simply don't get it. I can understand why...they're simply not like me..or should I say..they don't know me? Have you ever be in a situation whereby you wanna say something out loud but you can't? Because if you were to do so, certain things will happen? a different set of lights would be on you and everything would simply go out of hand? So...its like you're masking yourself everyday! Its a daily masquerade! The difference is that, the mask is invisible, no one sees it and so...they won't understand! I just wish they could shut up at times, quite irritating with all the labels and what nots. Go bore someone else with your insanity and childishness. I've no time to entertain. Just shut up and be gone! That certain breed is getting on my nerves..everywhere! They are like everywhere!! And they create so much problems. I must admit that they haven't been in my good books lately or..for quite some time? Bothersome..
Tick tack tick tack..oh mr clock..please speed through time and bring me to a certain date! I wanna settle things fast...the wait is killing me! The joke must be on me if not things wouldn't be like that. This fantasy call fate is taking its toll on me..
For now..enjoy the lady. Love this song!



I want your loving,
I want your revenge,
you and me could write a bad romance.

I want your love
And I want your revenge
I want your love
I don't wanna be friends.

Still..

My heart skips a beat whenever I look at the photos.
It simply takes my breath away.
Still stuck in transition.
The first few encounters,
felt like yesterday
and I remember it clearly.
Still makes me smile and cry.
The first time you held my hand,
I laughed. Silly me.
Perhaps I should have held on a little longer..


And the first time you lean against my shoulders,
I should have wrapped my arms around and hold you closer..
And now..
I wish that I could stay in your eyes a little longer..
Given a second chance,
I would do all those things again,
but this time, I won't hold back my feelings..
What do I do?
I'm not over you...



If only you know. =(

That's Why (You Go Away)

Exactly how i feel...

That's Why(You Go Away)
By: Michael Learns To Rock

Baby won't you tell me why there is sadness in your eyes
I don't wanna say goodbye to you
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
But there is something left in my head

You're the one who set it up now you're the one to make it stop
I'm the one who's feeling lost right now
Now you want me to forget every little thing you said
But there is something left in my head

Chorus:
I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feeling's so strong were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away I know

You were never satisfied no matter how I tried
Now you wanna say goodbye to me
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
There is something left in my head

Chorus

Yes i know

Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere
Don't know which way to go
There ain't so much to say now between us
There ain't so much for you
There ain't so much for me anymore

Chorus

That's why you go away I know

What If

Found this song in the midst of all the other songs in my music library. I've heard it before and loved it. Now, I'm gonna share it with you because its kinda meaningful.

What If
By Kate Winslet

Here I stand alone with this weight upon my heart and it will not go away
In my head I keep on looking back
Right back to the start
Wondering what it was that made you change

Well I tried but I had to draw the line
And still this question keeps on spinning in my mind

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time but I guess we'll never know

Many roads to take
Some to joy
Some to heartache
Anyone can lose their way
And if I said that we could turn it back
Right back to the start 
Would you take the chance and make the change

Do you think how it would have been sometimes
Do you pray that I'd never left your side?

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time but I guess we'll never know

If only we could turn the hands of time
If I could take it back would you still be mine?

'Cause I tried but I had to draw the line
And still this question keeps on spinning in my mind

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
What if I had never walked away 
'Cause I still love you more than I can say
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time but I guess we'll never know
We'll never know...

Isn't it true? what if we had held on, what if we tried? Everything is what if and never able to come true..once its gone its gone..there wouldn't be a second time, unless thru some miracle. Of course I wish time could turn back, turn itself back to those days..where everything was just you and me. I would be lying if I said that I didn't miss you at all because every single day, every morning, the first thing on my mind would be you. Even when my mind is occupied with school work, your name pops up, your image steals my concentration and you seem to be everywhere! At least..in my mind. Sigh..I just wonder why...what caused the change..somehow I believe that there is a main reason behind the 3 you gave..Though the pain isn't as bad as the past few weeks, but still..the wound hurts, the memories sting and I still miss you..I can't go on being like this, its tormenting my soul, but I can't break free! I'm two legs in and drowning..what if I need you, would you save me?