Don't say that you know me..seriously..because no one really knows what I want..

the carriage isn't kinda stable..

Haven't really had the time to update this space lately and since I'm pretty free now, a little post won't be that hard to type out.
Somehow, I don't think I know what I really want. What I always thought was what I would become doesn't seem to be that clear anymore. There's a little nudging feeling whenever I witness such a happening, but I know I'm not capable of achieving it or rather, its possible but behind closed doors..
OR
I'm wrong? Should I say I'm curious? or I'm confused?
Right now, the left and the right doesn't seem to make much sense but I'm trying to figure it out..still a long way ahead, afterall, I have a lot of time..

weeks and boredom flies..

4 weeks life in Specialist school started and now I'm left with another 4 more weeks before the foundation term ends. People say that army is the place where you'll find your best buddy or something..but it doesn't seem to be the case for me. Everyone in there knows each other, work with each other and get things moving..but from what I see, we're simply using each other to achieve whatever goals that we've set for ourselves. Like those who are still aiming to go officer command school or for those that simply wants to leech on others. I hate the leechers...screwed up low-life..totally no integrity, I DESPISE YOU! Oh well, 4 more weeks..there will be more SOC trainings, IPPT standards to hit, morning runs and field camps which I dislike. Suck it up for now. Can't wait for unit..or rather until I receive my rank.

Be it training or rotting about somewhere...time seems to just zip by and the worse part is that, there isn't anyone to rush thru those time with. Just aimlessly rotting..
And to think that you call people your good buddy when once they have a partner, you're off their radar? pfftt..totally dislike such ppl.
Sometimes I think that I'm meant to be alone..
Alright...time to edit my msn groups..

9 weeks and 1 year

9 weeks n I'm done! time really flies when u're slogging ur guts out.
All the hard work and training finally paid off during the tossing of jockey cap. Its a moment of relief but again it means that there are more things to come. It's like the starting of everything else that is to come. Posting would be out come Friday 10am. Not really excited to know where I'm posted to. Either way spells trouble n fatigue! Not to forget people telling me that my face has been neglected. So with all the meet ups and dinner, my week is kinda occupied!
hmm, I don't like you, you and you or rather you're ungrateful brats. oh well, hopefully I won't be seeing you anytime soon. Juz live your arrogant live and stay away. so what if you're an all rounder, juz trying to look good, to impress but it failed! doesn't work on me. The likes of you disgust me.
Ahhhhh, so much better. =)

On another note..Clearly, my human mass storage device is functioning perfectly well when I dreamt about you one fine night. Saddening but it won't bring me down since I'm done looking back.
Those simple gestures that I laughed at, those eyes..not to forget the snugglings. Gonna have to search fo someone who would do them again. During the 24km march, it brought me to where we had our first outing wiu your friends, at ecp. of course I could remember everything clearly, simply smiled and march on. it was all 1 year back..oh well.

gtg, blogging on iPhone isn't very fun.